constant negativity

Have you ever been around those people whom are constantly negative? its so hard to breathe around them, as id they suck the life from you one breath at a time.
GO GET HELP.... PLEASE FOR ALL OUR SAKES

All in a long days work

Today was a long day. Today was the big meeting with DDD about the hours for the kiddos I work with and the services they receive. In the end, it all went well, but it just seemed like a lot of deliberation to keep what they should rightfully have.
Why is it so hard for the state to want to help those that can't help themselves

in the thought...

He's gone... I'm alone... pushing through the pain.
Amidst the sobs my heart beats faster... pounding so hard I'm sure they can hear it outside my room.
What has happened? Where did it all go? happiness & love turned to betrayal & hurt, pain & misery...
Where do I go now? Whom do I trust?

my danger awaits...

The danger awaits as the promise of my life sleeps. Each moment, each breath- ever changing...
It waits for the darkness to come, to pull me into its cold grasp... waiting for it to over take me and pull me into the night sky filled oblivion...
but waiting is all I do... there is a light piercing the darkness... I warmth that holds my body ever so tightly.
Hoping that ill find my hiding place among the light... I still feel the smothering cold... when will it come?

Dead Flowers

I feel like the flowers in this vase

He just brought’em home one day
Ain’t they beautiful he said
They been here in the kitchen
And the waters turnin’ gray
They’re sittin’ in the vase but now they’re dead
Dead flowers

I feel like this long string of lights
They lit up our whole house on Christmas Day
But now it’s January and now the bulbs are all burned out
But still they hang, like dead flowers

He ain’t feeling anything
My love, my hurt, or the sting of this rain
I’m living in a hurricane
All he can say is man ain’t it such a nice day
Yeah yeah

I feel like that small string of lights
You said we won’t go far but we’re still rollin
I look in the rear view and I see dead flowers in the yard
And that string of lights they ain’t glowin’
Like dead flowers
Like dead flowers

He ain’t feeling anything
My love, my hurt, or the sting of this rain
I’m driving through a hurricane
All he can say is man ain’t it such a nice day
Hey hey, I guess we’ll just go to waste
Like dead flowers

Like dead flowers

so much to do...

I so often feel that there is so much to get done yet when I have a chance to sit and just breathe its very hard to become motivated to just work more. I want a break- I want some silence- I just want everything around me to stop moving for a bit.

so much to do...

I so often feel that there is so much to get done yet when I have a chance to sit and just breathe its very hard to become motivated to just work more. I want a break- I want some silence- I just want everything around me to stop moving for a bit.