I really don't understand things...

How is it that we can afford to pay millions of dollars to athletes, but we can't afford to pay any money toward people who are disabled? What are we teaching our younger generations when we can't afford a few dollars to give them an opportunity that they would not have received otherwise... Why can't we afford to help those whom are trying to get by each day and still not making enough.
I can honestly say that its exhausting working countless hours everyday and still not having enough to pay the bills on time. I am so thankful and know I am blessed to be someone whom has a job, but there are days I just wonder... when will it be enough? when will this money hungry world start to understand that that's not what its about. we need to start being aware and looking out for one another.

official decision

So I have been thinking lately and I have decided that people are never what you thought & rarely what you hoped they would be. It feels like so often am I proven wrong by peoples actions, words, or complete stupidity that I often wonder whom is really who they say they are?
Ugh... can someone show me some truth & leave out the bullshit... I would strongly appreciate it.

how do I help

I am In a situation where I am feeling lost. how do you help someone that is suffering and healing? I want to take away that pain.

constant negativity

Have you ever been around those people whom are constantly negative? its so hard to breathe around them, as id they suck the life from you one breath at a time.
GO GET HELP.... PLEASE FOR ALL OUR SAKES

All in a long days work

Today was a long day. Today was the big meeting with DDD about the hours for the kiddos I work with and the services they receive. In the end, it all went well, but it just seemed like a lot of deliberation to keep what they should rightfully have.
Why is it so hard for the state to want to help those that can't help themselves

in the thought...

He's gone... I'm alone... pushing through the pain.
Amidst the sobs my heart beats faster... pounding so hard I'm sure they can hear it outside my room.
What has happened? Where did it all go? happiness & love turned to betrayal & hurt, pain & misery...
Where do I go now? Whom do I trust?

my danger awaits...

The danger awaits as the promise of my life sleeps. Each moment, each breath- ever changing...
It waits for the darkness to come, to pull me into its cold grasp... waiting for it to over take me and pull me into the night sky filled oblivion...
but waiting is all I do... there is a light piercing the darkness... I warmth that holds my body ever so tightly.
Hoping that ill find my hiding place among the light... I still feel the smothering cold... when will it come?