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Jist another night

I am usually not a person that feels the need to talk about a whole lot of personal stuff... but tonight im struggling. I miss him... and it hurts... and I desperately want to tell him... but how.
How do you tell someone... "you made me fall in love with you and then broke my heart when you told me you needed to find you?"... after a year has gone by.?
I think one of the worst parts about it is is what he said... and that he still wants me in his life. How do you do that? Someone help?!?
Well... sorry to vent on you but im off to bed. Maybe tomorrow ill gather some insite and be able to place the pieced of my heart back into some sort of shape.

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Somewhere with you

I have been going through a lot lately... Changes in work, living situations, and now the person I thought I would spend forever with. I just don't understand it.

I know that he has a lot going on in his life as well, but how do you tell someone you love them for a year and then just need some time? How can you do things regularly with someone, and have an amazing time doing it, but then need to take time to find yourself... I know that these are age old questions that we all ask ourselves when we are in this situation, but the answers never seem to come easily.

I miss my friend, the person that made since to me... right now, there is no since.
I miss our adventures. I miss the motorcycle rides, and the hiking trips. I miss talking to you and saying something dumb and us both laughing like crazy about it. LED ZEPPLIN.
I miss trying all of the fun foods that he would talk me into trying, and our talks about our travels... his were way more exciting than mine. :)

I just miss being somewhere with him.

I really don't understand things...

How is it that we can afford to pay millions of dollars to athletes, but we can't afford to pay any money toward people who are disabled? What are we teaching our younger generations when we can't afford a few dollars to give them an opportunity that they would not have received otherwise... Why can't we afford to help those whom are trying to get by each day and still not making enough.
I can honestly say that its exhausting working countless hours everyday and still not having enough to pay the bills on time. I am so thankful and know I am blessed to be someone whom has a job, but there are days I just wonder... when will it be enough? when will this money hungry world start to understand that that's not what its about. we need to start being aware and looking out for one another.

official decision

So I have been thinking lately and I have decided that people are never what you thought & rarely what you hoped they would be. It feels like so often am I proven wrong by peoples actions, words, or complete stupidity that I often wonder whom is really who they say they are?
Ugh... can someone show me some truth & leave out the bullshit... I would strongly appreciate it.

how do I help

I am In a situation where I am feeling lost. how do you help someone that is suffering and healing? I want to take away that pain.

constant negativity

Have you ever been around those people whom are constantly negative? its so hard to breathe around them, as id they suck the life from you one breath at a time.
GO GET HELP.... PLEASE FOR ALL OUR SAKES

All in a long days work

Today was a long day. Today was the big meeting with DDD about the hours for the kiddos I work with and the services they receive. In the end, it all went well, but it just seemed like a lot of deliberation to keep what they should rightfully have.
Why is it so hard for the state to want to help those that can't help themselves

in the thought...

He's gone... I'm alone... pushing through the pain.
Amidst the sobs my heart beats faster... pounding so hard I'm sure they can hear it outside my room.
What has happened? Where did it all go? happiness & love turned to betrayal & hurt, pain & misery...
Where do I go now? Whom do I trust?

my danger awaits...

The danger awaits as the promise of my life sleeps. Each moment, each breath- ever changing...
It waits for the darkness to come, to pull me into its cold grasp... waiting for it to over take me and pull me into the night sky filled oblivion...
but waiting is all I do... there is a light piercing the darkness... I warmth that holds my body ever so tightly.
Hoping that ill find my hiding place among the light... I still feel the smothering cold... when will it come?

Dead Flowers

I feel like the flowers in this vase

He just brought’em home one day
Ain’t they beautiful he said
They been here in the kitchen
And the waters turnin’ gray
They’re sittin’ in the vase but now they’re dead
Dead flowers

I feel like this long string of lights
They lit up our whole house on Christmas Day
But now it’s January and now the bulbs are all burned out
But still they hang, like dead flowers

He ain’t feeling anything
My love, my hurt, or the sting of this rain
I’m living in a hurricane
All he can say is man ain’t it such a nice day
Yeah yeah

I feel like that small string of lights
You said we won’t go far but we’re still rollin
I look in the rear view and I see dead flowers in the yard
And that string of lights they ain’t glowin’
Like dead flowers
Like dead flowers

He ain’t feeling anything
My love, my hurt, or the sting of this rain
I’m driving through a hurricane
All he can say is man ain’t it such a nice day
Hey hey, I guess we’ll just go to waste
Like dead flowers

Like dead flowers

so much to do...

I so often feel that there is so much to get done yet when I have a chance to sit and just breathe its very hard to become motivated to just work more. I want a break- I want some silence- I just want everything around me to stop moving for a bit.

so much to do...

I so often feel that there is so much to get done yet when I have a chance to sit and just breathe its very hard to become motivated to just work more. I want a break- I want some silence- I just want everything around me to stop moving for a bit.

something to expand the mind

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I found this site for Homeschool families and I think that it is great!!!

new phone

I got my new phone and I am having one heck of a good time getting everything together on this thing. sweet! I just thought I would letchyall know... enjoy the coming posts.

new phone

I got my new phone and I am having one heck of a good time getting everything together on this thing. sweet! I just thought I would letchyall know... enjoy the coming posts.

A flash back with a twist

Come On 2010!!!

Many people look forward to the new year for a new start on old habits.
~Author Unknown

Isn't this the truth... I think that we all have to take the time to set Resolutions that are worth setting and worthy of following through with. Saying I am going to work out more this year- and then saying walking from your desk to the copy machine in the office ISN'T A WORKOUT.
Or- I'm going to eat better this year- And then the first thing that you shove into your face is a holiday cookie- THAT ISN'T EATING BETTER.

This year I want to set resolutions for myself that will make a difference in my life, and possibly those around me.

-> I want to more in God's word daily, and study what he wants for my life. And with this I hope to encourage others to do the same.

-> I want to continuously work on my relationship with me new husband keeping our love fun and fresh, and feeling as if it is still new.

-> I want to start getting back to my diet and excersize program and take the hubby along so that he can receive the benefits I have seen from it in my life.

-> I want to continue being a friend to those I hold dear, and show them the love of Christ.

-> Last but not least- I want to make 2010 a better year, a more productive year, and a much more positive year than 2009 was.



Thank you for all you do- and God Bless.... COME ON 2010!!!!

great idea

computer funk

Grrrrrrr... I hate it when you type things on the computer, and get everything right to the point of being done and then...
CRASH - BOOM - BANG
DEAD computer!!! ugh!!!